Dear...
Alhamdulillah tahap penelitian telah selesai 50 % dengan perjuangan jiwa raga, jatuh bangun tersoak-soak tapi harus tetap semangat, karena 50 % berikutnya masih banyak tantangan yang lebih besar lagi menunggu...
Berhubung tema penelitian saya tentang pembuatan implan, jadinya uji pelepasan harus 28 hari dengan kondisi alat harus ON selama itu, dan karena kondisi tersebut saya di wajibkan untuk menginap di laboratorium selama 28 hari X 2 .....
Pengalaman menginap di lab pertama kali, ada resah gelisah dalam hati tidak tenang bukan karena takut hantu atau karena penelitiannya gagal, tapi karena tidak nyaman tidur bukan di kamar sendiri....
Gak penting banget kan ??
:(
Tapi itulah yang kurasakan, tadinya ketawa ketiwi bareng temen-temen, ehhh tiba-tiba perasaan sedih yang amat sangat melanda...
Mungkin lebayy, tapi ini sudah seperti phobia...
Kata Mas Teguh sih, ini depresi ringan...
Aku sampai gak bisa makan, gak bisa tidur dan bawaannya pengen nangis....
Hiksss, huaaaaa....
Kok perasaanku bisa kayak gini ??
Padahal sudah ku sugesti dan tanamkan motivasi, kalo ini adalah proses yang harus aku tempuh untuk masa depanku sendiri, apa susahnya cuman nginap semalam dan besok paginya udah pulang lagi, apa yang perlu dikhawatirkan, sementara semuanya terlihat baik-baik saja....
Sampai akhirnya air mata menetes sedikit demi sedikit dan akhirnya membanjiri bantal dan boneka ku....
Mungkinkah ini tekanan psikologis ??
Atau apa yang biasa di sebut orang Phobia.. ?
Hem, tidak mudah bagiku untuk mengendalikan semua, butuh perjuangan menghadapi ini...
Mungkin bagi orang lain ini agak lebay, tapi....
Inilah yang kurasakan...
Perjuangan di depan masih panjang dan butuh kekuatan yang lebih lagi....
Semoga di beri kemudahan dan hati yang tegar untuk menyelesaikan semua ini sampai akhir...
Berjuang sampai titk darah penghabisan...
Hehhehehehe
Hope tomorrow will be better...
Aamiin
Minggu, 29 Maret 2015
Jumat, 20 Maret 2015
Day 4 : Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
Everyone has goals and dreams. But not everyone is convinced by what they want to strive for.
What I get now and what I am now, not because I desire it yesterday, but because of the dreams that I've had since many years ago.
There is nothing more beautiful, when fighting for what we believe. The struggle takes sacrifice, but not everyone can afford to sacrifice for what he fought for.
For now, there are still a lot of dreams that I want to achieve. Dreams that even I strive for every detail.
And I believe in my dreams.
Hope everything can be realized as expected
For you all, love your dreams, and do not give up on what you love ...
Ever...
What I get now and what I am now, not because I desire it yesterday, but because of the dreams that I've had since many years ago.
There is nothing more beautiful, when fighting for what we believe. The struggle takes sacrifice, but not everyone can afford to sacrifice for what he fought for.
For now, there are still a lot of dreams that I want to achieve. Dreams that even I strive for every detail.
And I believe in my dreams.
Hope everything can be realized as expected
For you all, love your dreams, and do not give up on what you love ...
Ever...
Kamis, 19 Maret 2015
Day 3 : When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
Of course, I would not say or admit something I never did.
Someone must have integrity, not because someone else but because of ourselves.
The most important thing for me is to live this life with sportivity...
Admit fault if I'm wrong though others consider it right and doing the right thing even if others consider it wrong...
Someone must have integrity, not because someone else but because of ourselves.
The most important thing for me is to live this life with sportivity...
Admit fault if I'm wrong though others consider it right and doing the right thing even if others consider it wrong...
Day 2 : Which is worse, failing or never trying ?
When I had never tried, at that time I've failed
already,
The real failure is when we never give ourselves a chance to try it
Tthe worst thing is when we never tried.
Because when we have the courage to try, then also we do not have fear to fail ....
already,
The real failure is when we never give ourselves a chance to try it
Tthe worst thing is when we never tried.
Because when we have the courage to try, then also we do not have fear to fail ....
Day 1 : How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are ?
Since i was forgetful, especially for the collection of numbers, so i think it's about 60', i've forgotten my age...
Moreover, i have always thought, that i was young and happy ...
Maybe someday, i will forget my age, but i will remember one thing, that i am not as old as i think :)
Moreover, i have always thought, that i was young and happy ...
Maybe someday, i will forget my age, but i will remember one thing, that i am not as old as i think :)
30 day introspective challenge
Dear...
Ide cerita menari-nari di udara, tapi pas depan laptop cuman mati gaya...
Udah beberapa minggu terkena sindrom malas dan banyak alasan. Keinginan buat ngeblog sih katanya besar, tapi....pas udah mau nulis aja malasnya minta ampun....
Tertekan batin penelitian tesis yang menguras banyak tenaga, pikiran dan keuangan...
Hohoho....
Curhat sama ngeluh itu beda tipis yah"...
Beberapa waktu lalu sebelum tidur, sempat blogwalking ke http://hansbrownsound.blogspot.com/...trus ada postingan "30 day introspective challenge"....
Ikut dong, pengen bongkar-bongkar isi otak kanan, ada apa aja....
Trus pengen mengalihkan sedikit perhatian dari tesis...
Hehehehehe...
Ini dia pertanyaannya...
Semoga bisa istiqomah menajwab...
Hehehehheh
This challenge is all about you: your values, your beliefs, your true essence. Answer the questions thoughtfully and truthfully in order to gain a greater understanding of who you really are.
1. How old would you be if youdidn’t know how old you are?
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
3. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
4. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you aredoing?
5. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
6. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
7. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
8. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
9. Would you break the law to save a loved one?
10. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
11. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
12. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
13. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
14. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
15. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
16. Has your greatest fear ever come true?
17. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
18. What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
19. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
20. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
21. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
22. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
23. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
24. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
25. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
26. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
27. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
28. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
29. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
30. Have you learned more about yourself by answering these questions the past 30 days?
Ide cerita menari-nari di udara, tapi pas depan laptop cuman mati gaya...
Udah beberapa minggu terkena sindrom malas dan banyak alasan. Keinginan buat ngeblog sih katanya besar, tapi....pas udah mau nulis aja malasnya minta ampun....
Tertekan batin penelitian tesis yang menguras banyak tenaga, pikiran dan keuangan...
Hohoho....
Curhat sama ngeluh itu beda tipis yah"...
Beberapa waktu lalu sebelum tidur, sempat blogwalking ke http://hansbrownsound.blogspot.com/...trus ada postingan "30 day introspective challenge"....
Ikut dong, pengen bongkar-bongkar isi otak kanan, ada apa aja....
Trus pengen mengalihkan sedikit perhatian dari tesis...
Hehehehehe...
Ini dia pertanyaannya...
Semoga bisa istiqomah menajwab...
Hehehehheh
This challenge is all about you: your values, your beliefs, your true essence. Answer the questions thoughtfully and truthfully in order to gain a greater understanding of who you really are.
1. How old would you be if youdidn’t know how old you are?
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
3. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
4. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you aredoing?
5. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
6. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
7. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
8. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
9. Would you break the law to save a loved one?
10. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
11. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
12. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
13. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
14. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
15. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
16. Has your greatest fear ever come true?
17. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
18. What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
19. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
20. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
21. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
22. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
23. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
24. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
25. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
26. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
27. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
28. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
29. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
30. Have you learned more about yourself by answering these questions the past 30 days?
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